Sad news and Nightmare

I had the weirdest dream a few nights ago. I was out with friends on top of a very tall building. I was carrying my friends baby, she's 1 year old now but in my dream she was a newborn. We were all talking when all of the sudden the building started to collapse. Everybody was so calm around me and I was the only one freaking out I was holding the baby so tight trying to cover her and protect her from harm. Then I realized maybe her mother wanted to die holding her baby.
In my dream, well actually nightmare!! the only thing I could think about was how I was going to die without having my baby. I woke up crying hysterically. Ever since I've been kind of down just thinking if this is ever going to happen. If we're ever going to have our baby.
I'm always in a positive mood but lately with all the things happening my positivism has disappeared. I hope it comes back. Don't like feeling like this.

The sad news is about my aunt. Remember how I told you she was pregnant with twins? Well she went for her 2nd ultrasound appointment 2 weeks ago and they told her one of the babies was kind of small and the heartbeat was not so strong. A week later when she went to her 3rd ultrasound with her OB, they found out both of her babies have passed. She's going thru a really hard time right now. There were no signs that this was going to happen. she never spotted, everything seemed normal. It's heartbreaking.