Tuesday, October 25, 2011

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When will this pain go away?
How am I going to get thru this?
Does it really get better?
I can't take it anymore, I feel so empty.
Why were my babies taken away from me??

I really can't get the words together yet to explain what happened.

Thank you all for your kind words and prayers.

8 comments:

  1. I understand. You know that we lost our boy/girl twins at 20 weeks and I still can't comprehend it all. I feel all of your pain and can only take it one hour, one day at a time.

    When you feel like you can't stand the pain, take slow, deep breaths. That's what I am doing and it does calm me down after a while.

    I am thinking of you.

    MissConception

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  2. I promise that there is something very healing about getting your story out. Just start writing; don't use spell check or re-read it...just write. And you dont even have to share it, but you will be thankful you got each detail in writing for months or even days down the road when your memory escapes you. I can't encourage you enough!!! Thinking of you endlessly.

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  3. My heart is breaking for you. I wish I could do anything to help with your pain. I will keep praying for you and your family.

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  4. Sending lots of healing prayers your way.

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  5. Lola, I am so sorry for your loss! I had a miscarriage and I can tell you the pain is intense and difficult. I can't imagine getting this far into and losing a child so I am sure you are in a lot of pain and disbelief. I wish there was something I could say or do to help. I know only time can help if anything. I found that talking to those who had a similar loss as me helped, they were the ones who got it, who felt my pain and didn't judge me for my feelings. I found a group on babycenter.com and I am telling you it seriously saved me after my loss. If you need to talk feel free to write me. Again I am so sorry.

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  6. Here from LCFA. I wish that nobody ever had to go through what you are experiencing. It us just unfathomable how such a thing can happen. I am so incredibly sorry for your losses.

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Waiting For Baby

June 2009- 4cm Fibroid found in Uterus
November 2009 - We got Married!
November 2009 - TTC
March 2010 - Hysterosalpingogram showe left tube blocked.
September 2010 - Fibroid now 9.5 cm
September 2010- Laparoscopy unsuccesful due to adhesions diagnosis Stage 4 endometriosis.
September 2010- Myomectomy 10.5 cm Fibroid removal, cleared some adhesions.
October 2010 - Continue TTC
December 2010 - Nothing yet move to IVF.

IVF #1 (2 embryos) - BFN
IVF #2 (3 embryos) - BFP
Boy/Girl Twins
Miscarriage 15 weeks
IVF # 3 (1 embryo) - BFN
FET # 1 (2 embryos) - BFP
Boy/Girl Twins
Miscarriage 21w4d

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FET # June 27th, 2013


 
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